What To Do

I have been quiet lately working on projects, playing with the kids. Trying not to focus on having another baby as much.

Part of me, honestly, doesn't want to try any more. Ever again.

I WANT another baby. Not just another baby but several more kids.

But part of me is so done with the trying process.

On the other hand the thought of preventing or not temping and tracking is hard. Am I ready to really give up that "control"?

Right now packing and preparing for the move and life and stress is a good distraction. I just worry about once we've moved in and settled down.

Shouldn't be this hard.