And It Begins

The peace is gone and the roller coaster begins.

I no longer feel hopeful for this month. I really feel like it's not going to happen.

Before O I playfully told DH we could announce at Christmas.

Now I am not even expecting to be pregnant by Christmas.

I don't even want to test. I haven't even bought any yet. I just want to wait this one out.

I am just not feeling it.