CD 37 - 10 DPO

Temp: 97.54

Symptoms:
Tons and tons of CM pouring out of me.
Cramps.
Irritability.
Mild nausea.

As you can see I caved and tested. Because yay late, no spotting! So my temp dropped, dropped the day I got a BFP with the twins! So why not?!

BFN. Clearly, 100%, not so much as an evap or indent. BFuckingN.

The cramps have picked up, like I said still no spotting, even after some vigorous sex.

I am just feeling very out right now. DH is feeling very negative about this. Says he can't take seeing me break down like this every month and he's thinking he wants to be done. We talked a little about it but nothing decided yet. I might push through until our 1 year mark and if we're still not pregnant then just stop charting and stop thinking about it.

I hate this.

Expecting AF tonight.

CD 36 - 9 DPO

Temp: 97.74

Symptoms:
Mild nausea.
Mild heartburn.
Full veiny boobs.
Headache.
Irritability (probably due to this damn headache).
Bloated.

Still no spotting but I am just not feeling hopeful with that dip. I know it's not a huge one but it's more then I wanted to see. I just can't get past the fear that AF is messing with me and just going to be a few days late.

Can I fast forward to tomorrow morning please?

AF is due tonight.

CD 35 - 8 DPO

Temp: 98

Symptoms:
Honestly if I am not pregnant have me committed.
Nausea, so bad I am wearing my seabands and have only been able to keep down crackers today. Gagging over everything.
Heartburn, so bad not even tums is touching it.
Bloated.
Minimal cramping. So far just once today.
Gassy.
DH claims smell sensitivity. I still maintain an animal must have died outside our window last night.

Chart is triphasic. Doesn't always mean pregnancy but I am hopeful.

No spotting at all right now, even after SEX, and trust me I am checking! I am also having these sharp zings on my cervix. Not sure what is up with that. Also still having lots of CM.

Let this be it!!!!!!!!!

CD 34 - 7 DPO

Temp: 97.94

Symptoms:
Cramps
Sore boobs/nipples
Nausea (gagging)
Heartburn
Irritability
Increase in CM
DH says I have super veiny boobs right now

I was excited at first about the temp rise until I opened my mouth about it to a friend and I remembered just how stupid I was being. The rise means nothing, I am not going to be pregnant.

We almost DTD last night but it was late and I needed to temp and then I got bad heartburn when I woke up in the morning so we have a date to do it tonight. Figured not only should we get it in before AF comes but also DTD always brings on spotting when AF is about to show so that will be a nice reminder that I am not in fact going to get pregnant this cycle. No spotting today.

CD 33 - 6 DPO

Temp this morning was 97.58.

Symptoms: Skin break out, sore nipples, heartburn, and lower back ache. Felt some weird cervical twinges last night and then started cramping but the cramping didn't last long and is gone now. All of these are still AF signs for me and last night I was craving chocolate.

My dad sent me chocolate covered almonds for Christmas but I don't like almonds so I was kind of like thanks... but he told me to try them because they are the best thing ever and sure enough, they taste like solid hot chocolate with some crunch in the middle! I am not a big chocolate lover so I can't handle more then 5 or 6 at a time, but they are very very good. Even my husband likes them and he doesn't like chocolate or nuts (are we not made for each other or what? Well except he prefers ice cream and I can't tolerate real ice cream lol).

I took a smaller screen shot today because the pictures were getting too big for my blog and when I resize them they come out blurry (you might have noticed that on yesterday's post).

I just took it from when I started temping. You can refer back to the other charts if you feel like you need another reminder at how freaking long my bleeding was!

Still definitely thinking I ovulated. Even though today's temp is .02 less then yesterdays it's still higher then my highest LP temp (I don't count the ones during AF because they fluctuate with the progesterone levels going down). And really, .02 is not a huge difference from yesterday either. Appears most all my 2/1ww temps are hovering around the same.

I'd still love a nice temp rise though body! Because a little egg is snuggling in, not because you want to be an ass and get my hopes up!!

CD 32 - 5 DPO

 I definitely ovulated!! I was worried maybe I'd had restless sleep and it caused my temp to go up (not getting enough sleep really effects my temps). But I had a BAD, like if I moved I puked (among other gross things) stomach flu yesterday and I was in bed all day, and still slept all night. Probably helped that I kicked my husband out to sleep on the air mattress and had the bed to myself! ;)

Temp this morning was 97.6!

I won't test until I hit 12 DPO (my LP has never been longer then 12 days and lately it's been 8 so I have a good shot at being pregnant if I reach that) so I am officially in the 1WW!

Right now I feel more like AF is coming then anything. I am PMSing pretty bad and DD #1's screeching is driving me to insanity. Let this next one be a boy, PLEASE!

Just kidding, I'll take whatever I can get! Even if that means several girls (but really God, please just one at a time this time, please?)!

I currently have just one FRER and on CBD HPT in the house right now and I don't want to line squint so if the CBD is negative at 12 dpo I won't take another HPT until it is or until AF shows.

Please let this be our month!!!!

9 DPO

Almost there!

My temp was up today, down slightly from my last one but I didn't temp on time last time and it was also pretty high for me so I am not worried.

I have decided if my temp is still up tomorrow I will test, and if it drops I won't bother and I will just wait for AF to show.

Threw up last night and was feeling very sick. I am feeling sick this morning but not sure if I am really not feeling well or if it's in my head.

I am excited that in less then 24 hours I will know if I am out or still in the game, or possibly even PREGNANT!

Some of my exciting IPS for the day is another bought of heartburn. I keep getting it but I am trying to chalk it up to what I eat and not get excited.

A sign I can't explain away is this metallic taste in my mouth. I have tried eating and drinking and brushing my teeth and I cannot get the taste out of my mouth. I had this with DS #1 too so I am pretty excited!

I also have sore nipples. Normally my boobs ache before AF but they are fine, it's just my nipples that are sore.

8 DPO

I know, it's so super early, but...

BFN.

I can't help myself.

Of course now I am crampy, all last night was craving salt and chocolate.

Pretty sure AF is on her way.

It sucks. :(

I know I said this last month, but I REALLY thought this was going to be my month.

I mean really, how can it take ME more then 4 months to try? Me whose gotten pregnant 4 times on accident with DH, who only had to try for 3 months and got twins? I know I get annoyed when people say how fertile I am all the time, but I never thought I was ever going to have any trouble.

I know 5 months isn't a huge amount of time, and I know technically AF isn't here yet.

But it feels like a long time, and I am pretty sure AF is definitely coming. :(

7 DPO

Big temp jump today. Fingers crossed!!!

6 DPO

Starting to feel out. I know it's early yet but I am cramping, my skin is breaking out, and I am craving salt and chocolate.

Yeah. Not good signs.

I stopped temping once O was confirmed. I told Rob I'd stop obsessing.

The only good thing is if it doesn't work out, next month I have a shot at a May EDD, and I will officially have made the recommended 18 months in between births (unless of course it ends up being twins and I go early).

Even though I would love a May EDD, the thought of not being pregnant this month is kind of soul crushing. I mean seriously, to even think having to say the words (well type lol):

"AF came, on to cycle #5."

Breaks my heart a little.

Cycle #5? Really?

I know I still have 5 days until AF, but I just feel like things weren't going so well this cycle as far as CM volume, the lack of, and slow temp rise.

I know we'll know soon enough but part of me is just sure it's not going to happen this cycle. :(

4 DPO!

FF finally confirmed O! I am worried the lack of much fertile CM and the low temps mean a poor quality egg but I am still hopeful.

Testing probably in a week!

Who Knows?

So if I O'd Sunday AF is due today. No sign still. If I O'd Monday, AF is due tomorrow. I do not think I am pregnant at all. Definite BFN this morning. Like, no shadow line or anything I can even hope with. Nothing.

Of course AF is going to show tonight or tomorrow, ruining my date night Saturday and making Mother's Day out in the park for a birthday party unbearable. I might have to skip the party to be honest. I don't know if my period will be heavy or go back to normal and I don't want to be having a heavy flow while at a park for hours.

A Correction

My previous post was wrong. Thursday is NOT 10 dpo. Thursday is 11 dpo, and AF is due that day. So if it doesn't show but I get a BFN I will wait 2 more days.

There is a chance I O'd Monday and not Sunday and that would make it only 10 dpo, so if nothing happens by Friday I am officially late by either standard. I feel strongly that I O'd on Sunday but we'll see.

The 1 Week Wait

I think the best part of having such a short LP is that I know a lot sooner whether I am pregnant or not.

My LP RARELY changes. So essentially if I reach 11 DPO I am late, AF is MIA.

I usually spot 10 DPO and AF full on comes at 11 DPO. So if there I will be testing on Thursday, 10 DPO. If I get a BFN and AF doesn't show that day or the next I will test on Saturday.

If BFP I will test every day until I believe it lol! I have 3 FRER's and 2 digitals so we're set! :)